In Our Quiet Time I Rejoice

Lord, You keep me, You Keep Me,
When I stray You keep me,
When I stay close You keep me,
When I am in rejection You keep me,
When I am in love You keep me,
When I have Joy You keep me,
When I have sorrow You keep me,
When I have abundant life You keep me,
When I have loneliness You keep me,
When I have peace You keep me,
When I am found in You, You keep me,
When I am afar off You keep me,
You rejoice in me, You love me,
Your heart is filled with love and delight when I rejoice in you,
Your heart beats with love even when I walk away,
Lord you keep me at all times,
You are the constant force; You are the power found in me,
You and I are together
By Chris Buchan , 31st August 2009

When I was having my quiet time I realized while writing that no matter where I was, or what I was feeling, or doing that God loves me and keeps me, it's Him all about Him, made me feel very cared for and loved.

God's Creativity

Recent photos from Galveston beach

My Health, My Faith, My Peace........

Galveston Beach

Over the last few months I wasn't feeling very well but I just thought I was getting old, I then started to have a lot of pain and was finally convinced to go to the doctor. I'm more of a God heal me kind of person so it was really a miracle to get me there. As I found out that I had blood clots in my lungs and more than a liter of fluid had to be drained off of my right lung. I was blessed to be alive as if the clots had moved I could have died. I have been poked prodded and bled to see what caused it to find out they don't know. over $45,000 it costs but I'm alive and now on the mend. I am on blood thinners and just finishing my second course of steroids but I am so at peace.

Through this whole time I have only experienced moments of fear, no more, the rest of the time I have felt, blessed, loved, cared for and just plain peaceful. I know that God saved my life and is looking after me and it's set me free that wee bit more. Which is so good.

At church after coming out of the hospital I just felt so humbled to be able to say thank you to my God.

This past Sunday I just wanted to shout so I did, I sang louder coz I could, and worshipped my friend. That's what He is my friend, yes God but He didn't heal me He got me to the doctor, very strange, why I don't know, maybe I have to trust people not just Him, who really cares yes I want all He has for me but I felt loved. God is my carer. I trust Him with my life. How cool not that I'm invincible but just taken care of. LOVED!!!

I like life but apart from leaving all the things I want to do and not wanting to see my family sad not to have me and to take care of them, it would be so cool to see God and hang out. He likes me how cool is that, warts and all. I have so many flaws but He loves me. I can't grasp it but I feel it. I don't have to see stuff I just have to be with HIM...

I am closer to my goal of freedom. People, bless em, don't have to get me, I don't have to please them, I just have to love and be loved. WOW!!!! God is definitely great.

I went to the beach, I love the beach, even with this body I now have, 75lbs heavier than when John was with me. But I just swam, sang, floated out in the sea for a long long time having my quiet time with Jesus, except it wasn't all that quiet ha ha. Freedom, just to be..... I felt so happy, at one point after John left I wondered if I ever would be happy again, wow God has really healed me, I feel so much JOY, which is an experience not just a feeling. It comes because , through and with Jesus. I love it.

Thank you Lord for giving and keeping me in LIFE. You are awesome and I love you so much!!!!!!!!

Faith a gift from God: Kingdom Living

What is faith? It's believing that the unseen will happen or has already happened. I had been reading a book by Bill Johnson called "The supernatural power of a transformed mind" and it gave me new revelation of a scripture that I had read and recited many times. The Lord's prayer, when it says Thy Kingdom come Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Wow His will, the Father's will for us is for His Kingdom to come to earth as it is in Heaven. Here and now. Everything that happens in Heaven to happen on earth. To have that authority and faith to believe He wants us to have that power now. As a result my thinking has changed. It went on to say because Christ lives inside us as Christians we are His kingdom. That our minds were the gate way to living this truth out. Our minds are a gateway into the kingdom. Paul says that we should renew our minds. The battle for either truth of lies is won in our minds.
When you receive this truth things change. I told God I would try and do everything that He told me. During a quiet time one morning I was stirred by Him to restore a relationship I had lost and in obedience went to the person's home believing that if God could speak to me then He could be speaking to them also. I was invited in and told that she had been thinking about me 3 days prior and that this must be supernatural. We spent 4 hours catching up and I believe what the devil meant for bad God turned for good. God's timing and healing power and our faith in Him to change things brought restoration. It happened again during the following week. I didn't want any blockage in my worship time with God. and God honored my trust, obedience and faith and brought healing!
God is good. He is working. We have to spend time with Him and listen to what He is calling us to do. I believe the impossible with us is possible with God. My ex husband who actually got me started writing this blog to get my hurts and frustrations out on cyberspace to help me heal is still away from God.
He had a baby boy and is still with the other woman. In man's eyes it's impossible, too much time has passed for him to change and to ever come back. But I haven't given up hope. God can bring restoration. He believes in the impossible becoming real. Faith.... It says what ever we bind in earth will be bound in heaven and whatever we loose in heaven will be loosed on earth. I bind the spirit of lust and loose the spirit of faithfulness and love. I bind the spirit of deception and lies and loose the spirit of revelation and truth. I bind the spirit of fear and loose the spirit of freedom in the lives of my family and in John's life. God is able to deliver us. What the devil meant for bad God can turn to good.
We as a family have come through a hard journey of growth and revelation. I believe as we are open to God's will being done in my life God is able to do His will in my life no matter how He gets me there. Maybe different paths and lessons have been taught and learned but reaching freedom through a heart of faith and trust in God has become reality.
I have love and relationship in my life that doesn't come from man but comes from God. He has brought me to contentment with an urgency for more and a PASSION FOR LIFE.... Life has found joy again not just in feelings but in faith.
Do I believe the impossible can happen. YES!!! Let's just wait and see. God is able.